Cafecito with Noah
Do you ever wish you had a close friend who is also a professional Lifecoach? Someone who can share their own life experiences, challenges, and insights with you over a cup of coffee? Someone you can relate to who can explore the rough seas of life alongside you and help you find your true north?
If so, then you will love Cafecito with Noah, a podcast that is intimate, authentic, and empowering. In each episode, I chat with you as I would a close friend and share my personal life journey. You will hear about the challenges that I face, and the powerful psychological, philosophical, and spiritual tools that I use to overcome them. You will learn how I transform my obstacles into opportunities and my problems into gold. When attending live on Instagram or Twitch, you will also get a chance to be a guest in the live chat.
Cafecito with Noah is a journey of personal growth and discovery. It is a way to connect with yourself and others who are on the same path. It is a way to learn from a lifecoach who is not afraid to be vulnerable and honest with you.
So grab your favorite mug, brew some cafecito, and let's navigate life together.
Cafecito with Noah
#5 - Human Design, Digital Triumphs, and Liberating Self-Expression
Embark on a thought-provoking journey with me, Noah, as I muse on the art of embracing the present and the magic it unfolds when we treat it like heaven on earth. The latest "Cafesito with Noah" is not just your regular podcast; it's a live-streamed blend of philosophy, heartfelt updates, and the essence of community spirit. I delve into the challenges of navigating the digital realm, from Instagram woes to Twitch triumphs, all while crafting the upcoming episodes of our beloved series. Amidst the technical tangles, I share the significance of team synergy in transforming our brainstorming sessions into published masterpieces, and extend a warm thank you to those who fuel our gatherings with their vibrant presence.
As we traverse the realms of self-discovery, I unravel the wonders of Human Design, where I find my own nature as a Projector resonating with my life's path and achievements. In an exciting development, I'm on the cusp of unveiling a coaching website, with AI marvels like ChatGPT poised to redefine our communication landscape. And let's not overlook the joy of a birthday wish from an old friend – a reminder of the treasured bonds that outlast life's fleeting moments. Joining me is the remarkable Katie, an MD turned coach, whose mastery in the personal development domain through social media is nothing short of inspiring. We tease a future episode where Katie will unveil the curtain on her transformative journey and the digital strategies that amplify her voice.
To conclude, our episode wanders through the labyrinth of self-expression, confronting the specter of shame and celebrating the cathartic act of singing. I share my own voyage of vocal discovery, from grappling with the judgment that once left me voiceless, to finding liberation in accepting my baritone timbre. It's a testament to the alchemy of personal growth, where embracing vulnerability can transmute our deepest fears into a newfound strength. So, steep your favorite cup, sit back, and let's explore together the boundless potential that lies within the simple yet profound act of taking action, one authentic note at a time.
You're about to hear what's coming up next on this episode of Cafesito with Noah. I so often just chill there. I chill in the philosophical space, just like ruminate and kind of like think things through and find my way to the heaven experience, no matter what's happening in the present moment right, because it's always available. You don't have to do things to qualify to get in. I can just experience the present moment as heaven. And it's easier said than done, but I've achieved it on some extent and I know the path there. And yet I want to be producing. You know, once I'm sitting there, I'm like, oh hey, I'm in heaven. It's like, well, now what it's like. Well, I'd love to make some content. I'd love to have some other people be here with me. I would love to share the experience, you know, and some suffering. So action and we're live. Ideally, everything is working. I'm going to do my quick show there. We go. Twitch coming in hot. Ah, yes, it is functioning properly. Hi, twitch. I'm going to do my intro on both things. So let me go live on Instagram, as usual. That's what I'm looking at over here.
Speaker 1:This is Gavisita with Noah, which we're going to talk about more in a moment. Go live. There it is, and action Checking the connection, and we're live. Hello, hello. I can take these off now I've done my sound check. Hmm, interesting. Well, I'm back with my really good internet, so, theoretically speaking, sounds going to be great this week.
Speaker 1:Hello everybody, welcome back to another Gavisita with Noah. This is my long form, free form. What is it? Informal, informal content Very exciting. Hi Gaspar, hi mom, thank you for jumping in saying hello, I'm having a Starbucks Nitro Brew, a Sweet Cream. Oh, there goes. Instagram, ignore limit for today, instantly, instantly, tries to limit me. They really should like cancel that feature for when you're trying to do a live, or at least they should have a pop up that says hey, by the way, you set yourself up, you know, for a screen time notification, blah, blah, blah.
Speaker 1:Anyway, wanted to do a quick update on the podcast before we get into the long form. I also had notes, I just realized, so I should pull those up. But anyway, so for the podcast, I froze. Okay, let's hope that on Instagram I unfroze. Let's see if somebody will communicate to me whether or not we're back. Are we back, brendan? How's it going? Ogre, I don't know how to pronounce that. Ogre, I think that's about right. Can't hear you, yeah. So now they can't hear me on Instagram, which means I'm going to go like this and end it, discard the video and then reopen it. Take two Welcome back. Uh, I had got hit on my screen. Uh, what is it called? It's the thing that limits the amount of time you can spend in a nap. I set one up for Instagram so I don't spend my life on Instagram, but the second I went live, it immediately came up and booted me off of my own live stream. I was just saying that before I get into the long form informal nature of God, she thought with Noah.
Speaker 1:I just wanted to talk about the podcast real quick. Essentially, what's coming up for my podcast? I already recorded the next episode. Great, oh my goodness. Technology. Today, there we go Already recorded my next episode. It requires editing, and then I got to pump it up. What's up? Chicken coming in and saying hello on Twitch, hi chicken. So look forward to that. Hopefully, I can get that up soon. I'm hoping to get it up this month, which means, like you know, in the next two weeks, ideally.
Speaker 1:There's been some other developments, though, and that's part of the hang up, but basically I'm unsure of how long I'm going to be able to keep the space that I'm working out of this studio office. So I might pivot my strategy for the next month and try to bring in as many guests as possible and just keep recording, recording, recording and then do a bunch of editing at once, so like batch record episodes with different guests and then just batch edit and theoretically I could have a few months of content that way if I released maybe one episode a month. Yeah, I don't see. And then that brings us to the next chapter, which is about team building. You know, right now I do everything on my own and definitely approaching a place and time where that is completely sub ideal. Ideally I could have somebody who helps me out and edits for me and helps me just with the whole pipeline.
Speaker 1:There's so many things that go from, you know, just setting up the space, then hitting record, then processing the recording and then publishing. You know that's a whole nother thing, not to mention like marketing and all that. So it would be nice to start building a team. If anybody here can help with that, that would be amazing. If you have any recommendations, I'm open and ready to hear them. But yeah, that's kind of where I'm at. So that's what's going on with the podcast.
Speaker 1:Episode three is recorded. Wait, one, two, three, four. Episode four has already been recorded and we're going to try to get as many guests in as possible before I have to move out of this place and then rebuild the studio somewhere else. Hey Rebecca, hey Hustl, how's everybody doing? What up, matt? So yeah, let's check my notes real quick. Okay, I just wanted to say also this is on my notes that a deep thank you to everyone who has been first of all showing up live, like saying hi to you guys is phenomenal. I love seeing you guys. That's the whole point of Cofisito with NOAA.
Speaker 1:The way I came up with it was. In real life, I often go out for coffee with my friends. It's like one of my favorite things to do, and for years I've missed my online community, so I'm like dude. Instead of overcomplicating things, what if I just have coffee with the friends that I made in my online community? And that's what this is. But I just want to say thank you to everybody who comes in live, and then I want to say a huge thank you, another big, big thank you to the fans who have been listening to this.
Speaker 1:After the fact, it was a big thing about whether or not I should post it to my main feed on Instagram, for example, twitch it's there as a video on demand and ideally I'll move it over to YouTube maybe if we get some traction. But any colleges in the area where you live? Yeah, I live in Los Angeles, so theoretically I've got a bunch of people available. I mean, I'm in like the content production capital of the world, so I should be able to find people. I guess maybe I should go to Craigslist or something and look. In any case, prof, you're one of the people that I want to thank. You know, coming in after the fact, watching the video on demand, letting me know that you really enjoy it.
Speaker 1:I've had a few people reach out to me and tell me, even a week after I make the coffee, though with Noah like, oh, I just watched it. It was so nice to like connect and like hear how you're doing. You know, please keep making these, etc. Etc. And because they're so informal, sometimes it can feel like, well, is anybody, does anybody really care? It doesn't have a huge value offering, etc. Etc. But when I get these messages, it tells me that somehow it does, you know, and so that makes me definitely want to keep coming back.
Speaker 1:That said, I have, and I haven't looked into this yet but I met a woman not too long ago, maybe like within the last year, at the Magic Castle in Los Angeles super cool place, by the way. She apparently had a successful subscription based podcast where it was kind of it was like intimate and she just speaks by herself into a microphone. It's essentially as if you were either talking to a therapist or talking to like a close friend, minus the gavacito and minus the two way interaction. It's just a one way sort of like long monologue, but apparently something about the authenticity of it and also how vulnerable it is and sort of, yeah, real is the value offering. And I wonder if maybe that is an angle for me as well. Maybe that could be a sort of what's the word I'm looking for?
Speaker 1:Offering, an offering for you guys where we can be close, and it's the kind of content that I don't need anyone else to produce so I can just kind of do it on my own. It would have a little bit of informality to it. It would be in the sense that it's just me chatting the way I normally would, and sort of what shines through is that sort of like raw, real authenticity. So I've been toying around with that idea and thinking, maybe, oh, maybe Caffesito with Noah becomes that, or maybe that's something like Caffesito with Noah after hours kind of thing. But we'll see. It's just kind of been bouncing around in my head as this sort of like hmm, how can I get more of me and the light in me out to you guys, out to the world, which is like the big quest, you know, that's like the whole idea with everything that I'm up to. That's like the big hurdle to clear the obstacle, if you will. The obstacle is the path. Alright, this is great.
Speaker 1:Okay, so my next topic here that I have in my notes is my life coaching business. You know I have a life coaching business. I've been a coach for man. It's been like four and a half years now. You know, one of the things about my coaching business that I've struggled with is describing to people what the hell it is and what I do, because so often it's extremely personal and I've had times where I whip up an entire coaching offering that I literally had never thought of doing, had never done before and make it tailor made to the person who asked me to coach them. So it's been this client driven process, you know, in a real way, and that's difficult to market, or at least it's been difficult for me to market it. So you know, I was just thinking in human design.
Speaker 1:In human design, I am a projector, I think, if I'm not mistaken, spleenic or whatever, and we thrive on invitation, right. So when it's kind of interesting the way it works, like when and it's funny because, like I, you know, I had the life phenomenon happen then I found out about my human design and then I was like, oh, that human design stuff actually kind of maps to this life phenomenon that's happening, which is we thrive on invitation, we love invitation. So when somebody invites me to do something, then that propels me to want to show up and do the thing. So, for example, I was thanking everybody for showing up here and saying hello in the chats and stuff and being engaged. What's up, nick, how's it going? Sasha, hi, and so that's that really, really works for me. Like, when somebody invites me, oh, I want to see more Gavacito with Noah. Boom, I start producing more Gavacito with Noah.
Speaker 1:It's fuel for a projector, basically in human design. In much the same way, when a client comes up and they're like, hey, I need this kind of coaching, and I'm like, hey, in all honesty, I've never done that specific kind of coaching before. Let me, you know, let me see if I can get back to you, and then I do, and every time it's always been successful. So it's really cool that way and I guess it's one of my projector gifts is that they create this invitation and then I can fill the request. But again, difficult to market. So what does this mean? Where am I going with all of this? I'm trying by Wednesday. That's my goal right now. That is the deadline that I set for myself.
Speaker 1:I'm trying to have a coaching website complete and what's exciting is, thanks to AI, like chat GPT, which I've been playing around with in the last week or so, I have incredible copy for my website that I yo, nick, thank you so much, thank you, thank you, thank you. That's like, almost like. That's kind of one of my first birthday wishes, brother. Oh man, this bumped to you, nick. Nick, my buddy from preschool, all the way back long term bros, just wished me a happy birthday. It's coming up on the 11th of January a factoid that my best friend Hunter likes to mess with me, because I'm very proud of it. I love my birthday, one, one one. But thank you so much, nick. I really appreciate it. Where was I? Oh, I'm gonna have a website, hopefully by Wednesday, not hopefully.
Speaker 1:If I decide to stick to it and I don't renegotiate the deadline, which I don't expect to, I'll have my website done by Wednesday, and the chat GPT helped me produce some seriously compelling copy. What does that mean? I told chat GPT, in my sort of informal way, what I do, and chat GPT was able, in like 45 seconds, to synthesize a punchy distillation of what I do and serve it back to me. And, as a matter of fact, now that I'm saying this to you guys, I feel like I might as well just read to you, while we're here, what that damn program said Granted, like I said, I gave it paragraphs worth of information and then it used that to boil it down and describe me. Let's see pulling it up. So cool. And then what's neat about it, too is, once I had the skeletal structure of the thing, it became so easy then to be like oh, of course, this is a great way to say it Now. I can edit this and make it completely personal. Make it my own if you will, and off we go. So anyway, it's amazing. Highly recommend everybody checks it out. It looks like the servers have been overloaded. My sister tried to use it and it's like you know. Come back later when we've scaled our operations, all right. So here we go.
Speaker 1:I said to this thing hey, given all the information I gave you, how would you respond to somebody who asks what your app does? It said Prospera Pro is a personal finance app that helps you achieve financial freedom in a fun and magical way. Facts With Prospera Pro, you'll be able to track your spending budget for your goals and make informed financial decisions that align with your values and dreams. That said, prospera is not your average finance management tool. Prospera goes beyond dry, mechanical techniques, because Prospera believes that achieving prosperity is about so much more than just money. It's about cultivating a healthy and abundant mindset that supports you on every step of your personal journey. I've been talking about this damn app for like three years, and that is everything I want to say about my app in a tiny little paragraph. It's genius. I just it gets me excited every time I read it, it's so cool. And then I've got something similar for my life coaching business, so I'll read that.
Speaker 1:Okay, make me a landing page based on my you know qualifications, professional and personal. Here we go. Are you ready to take control of your life and achieve your goals? As a certified life coach, I'm here to help you make positive changes and reach your full potential. With my enthusiasm for life and love of people, I will work with you to identify your strengths and overcome any obstacles that are holding you back.
Speaker 1:My unique background and qualifications make me well equipped to guide you on your journey. As a certified neuro linguistic programming, an LP coach and a social and emotional intelligence coach, I have the tools and techniques to help you reach your goals. I also have a strong background in therapy and have studied and practiced various philosophical and spiritual traditions, which allows me to bring a diverse set of perspectives and approaches to my coaching work. In addition to my professional qualifications, I have a wealth of personal experience that makes me a unique and well rounded coach. As the oldest brother in a group of five siblings, I have developed deep, warm and loving relationships with my family. I am also a natural problem solver and regularly use lateral thinking to solve problems. In my personal life, I have led sales teams to victory in competitive environments, and I have eight years of experience managing a household that has seen over 13 unique personalities, while establishing and maintaining group peace, harmony and cooperation. Plus, I am a 16 times skydiver, which required me to embody the work, believe in my dreams, invest in them and ultimately face the fears that stood in my way. I have done, and continue to do, the great work.
Speaker 1:Are you ready to take the next step and start achieving your goals? Contact me to learn more about how I can help you live your best life. What the fuck, dude? Oh, my god, just so so cool, interesting. Hello, jdm, I think you might be a bot, but anyway, hi, Thank you for popping in. Twitch is like a whole new frontier from where I left it Anyway, so we'll leave it at that. Holy hell, I absolutely love this thing. I can't wait to have these cool websites up.
Speaker 1:This has definitely been a bottleneck in my process for a long time, and it was not until I read what this machine told me, like the copy that it spit out. I read it and I was like I never knew that copywriting was such a huge bottleneck. I would have gone to Fiverr and just been like yo, somebody you know here's what I do, please write me some copy for a website and an Instagram bio and etc. But I never thought to do it because I did not know it was a bottleneck. The second I saw just how concise it was. I was like wow, it literally inspires me to want to go make a website, like to want to put that text on a website. So anyway, thanks for listening to that.
Speaker 1:That's chatGPT. Highly recommend you guys. Check it out, google it. You know you got to make a little account to use it and, like I said, their servers are kind of overloaded right now. But worth trying it, try it for your business. There's a whole bunch of other use cases too. I mean, like the possibilities are almost endless. All right, how are we doing? We're doing great. Let's have a little sipity sip, sip.
Speaker 1:By the way, the link to all of my businesses and stuff is in my bio on Instagram and for anybody on Twitch. You can probably find my link to Instagram in my bio on Twitch and then you can find or I probably have my. I don't know if I've got my link tree on my Twitch, but you know what to do. Just yeah, two clicks, guys. Two clicks, we got it. I'm going to keep streamlining, but in the meantime, two clicks.
Speaker 1:Yo, nick, what do you mean? What's your job? Were you a copywriter, bro? Chatgpt took my job. Oh dude, that's so brutal. You got to tell me what that means. And then we got to, like, get you trained on prompt writing so that you can be the driver of the thing that took your job. Then you win again, right?
Speaker 1:So I wanted to talk a little bit about my friend, katie. Katie, I reached out to her a few weeks ago to potentially be a guest on my podcast and she was really excited about that. Oh, matt, I love you, dude Wielding the sword, cutting down the bots of the internet. Thank you so much. Oh, a little glass of wine, mmm, perfect, I love it. I got, actually, I have like 11 bottles left right over there, so that might be it. That could be another offering. That's another. That might be the after hours. It could be a little glass, if you need to. Eddie, how's it going? Man, welcome, welcome. Thank you for stopping by.
Speaker 1:So, katie is incredible, inspirational, like you know, unreal. She's a coach herself. She was not always a coach. She actually was an MD, if I'm not mistaken. She was a full blown doctor and then did all of this personal development stuff and was so enthralled by the leaps and bounds that she made personally that she was like fuck this, I'm not a woman to getting this level of freedom and self love and expression, etc. The thing, one of the things, one of the things that I find super remarkable about Katie is she is a social media machine and I admittedly don't know if she has a team working with her or if she's just doing it alone. If she's doing it alone, I am beyond impressed by her productivity. This woman is outputting content regularly. Talk about copywriting just writing and writing and writing and writing and writing. So I'm really excited to have her on. She's so much fun, she's so cool and we can get a few of those techniques tips. I want to poke her brain a little bit about her own journey and also how she manages to keep up with so much social media on a day to day basis. It's inspiring really. Eddie, I'm doing well.
Speaker 1:My guy, you have stumbled into Capsa Cita with Noah. I'm not sure if you know what Capsa Cita with Noah is, when I look this way, eddie, I'm looking at Twitch because I'm live on Twitch, but when I look this way, twitch, I'm on Instagram. That's what we're doing. It's six. Yes, exactly, it is happy hour. There you go. Yeah, you know I like a 3pm Capsa Cita here on the West Coast. I mean, I like 3pm coffee pretty much everywhere because I have enough energy to get through the first half of my day and probably have enough energy to get through the second half. So I like to just drop the coffee right middle end of the day carries me through into the night and I'm kind of a night owl. So, anyway, that's why I'm doing a 3pm coffee. But sometimes I think I've done one Capsa Cita with Noah. That was at noon Could happen.
Speaker 1:Double social media yeah, you know, it's a content thing, man, it's the modern world. What can you do? But, yeah, so drinking a little Nitro Brew with sweet cream. It's delicious, pretty much my classic order. And just talking about what's coming up. Okay, cool, yeah, we're pretty much plowing through my notes here.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yeah, betrayal Starbucks. I know right, it is what it is. It's a quick and easy grab and go. Besides, you're not. Are you still at Stamp? I don't know if you are at Stamp. Stamp is my local coffee shop. It's where I met Eddie. That is the best why. Thank you very much, prof. But if you're not at Stamp anymore, then you know, no harm, no foul. If you are at Stamp, I'm sorry, I gotta place my order. You gotta do a little. We got, oh, maybe I can use like Uber Eats or something. Anyway, it is, the Starbucks is my grab and go. Stamp is my sit and chill. Stamp is Capsa Cita with Noah in real life. Eddie has been present for many Capsa Cita with Noah in real lives. He gets it. He took me off the hook.
Speaker 1:Landon, hello, welcome, welcome, welcome. So nice to see you. I'm waving at Landon. I would wave at everybody else. Where's the little thingy? Nope, it's gone. Oh wait, it's not gone. Hold on, I can wave and wave. I'm just waving now. There we go. I got a few waves off. I don't know how that works. Landon, I miss you too. Landon is a very close friend of mine. I love Landon Also in the personal development space. Total, freaking, unicorn, rainbow, magical wizard, love. Landon.
Speaker 1:Haven't heard from you in a minute, man, how are you doing, have you Landon? Have you seen anything about the podcast? Have you seen anything about God Mode, a player's guide to life? I've been putting a bunch of people from MITT, which is the place that we all, that I met a lot of personal development folks at. I've been putting them on the podcast and I keep doing it. I mean, I love, I love them. I love them. A true homie, wow, thank you. How are you guys doing this week? What's coming up for you? What are you guys going through?
Speaker 1:This is always supposed to be a back and forth conversation. Parts of a few videos. Very good, man, that's what's up. That's why I make that short, punchy content. Every long form podcast episode, again with enough work and hours, gets cut down and recut into little punchy clips so that I can sort of export the nuggets and then, if anybody just wants to chill out, vibe out with me and the guest, they can watch the whole thing. It's always available. Oh, my TikTok, nice Dude guys.
Speaker 1:See, I was talking a little bit earlier about the amount of work that goes into getting me, the human, all over the internet and it's like man, even TikTok, that's what I'm talking about. And then you've got YouTube shorts. Comes in and says, oh, your video can't be more than 60 seconds to be on YouTube shorts. And at first I was like, okay, so I've got my YouTube horizontal version. Then I cut my vertical version, the subtitles on the vertical version, and then I go to post it on YouTube shorts, after posting it on IG and on TikTok, and YouTube shorts is like, oh, it's too long. So at this point I'm pretty much like screw it, I'm literally making 60 second clips. I'm not even going to go more than 60 seconds because I don't feel like cutting it again and then I'll post it everywhere like all at once.
Speaker 1:But it is a lot, it's a lot, it's wild. I love it, though I mean, at the end of the day, one of the big things, like my word of the year this year is action, and the reason I've chosen that word is because, like, yeah, it's a lot. Yeah, blah, blah, blah all the you know, all of the things that we think that get in the way of us wanting to get thing done. But at the end of the day, what I've noticed is and I might have I don't know if I've said this before but no matter what, no matter what I'm feeling, no matter what I'm thinking, no matter what triumphs I've been hurtling over, etc. Etc.
Speaker 1:Every time I return to my YouTube page or to my Instagram or to any of these things like Twitch, for example, I look at how much I've produced and I'm upset that I have not produced as much as I would like to produce. And that is just about action, you know. And so I've just reduced my expectations, which is funny because I still have them. Like, here we are. It's great quality, everything seems to be working, the sound is working, the lighting is nice. You know, I have, I have like a bar, but I'm just not overthinking it anymore and I'm just going to, like, make squares appear on my different channels, right, granted, my version of not overthinking it is probably thinking about it a lot more than some other people who have an incredible talent for just scuffing things and still getting the value out there. So I'm still trying to borrow a little bit from them and style flexing in that way. But otherwise, you know, I think just setting my word as action is kind of cool, and for me it's definitely new, you know. Thank you, landon.
Speaker 1:A little philosophical genius. I appreciate that. You know that. Just that, you know, that kind of proves my point, philosophical, right. I so often just chill there, I chill in the philosophical space, just like ruminate and kind of like think things through and find my way to the heaven experience, basically no matter what's happening in the present moment, right, cause it's always available. You don't have to, I don't have to do things to qualify, to get in. I can just experience the present moment as heaven. And maybe you know I think that's it's easier said than done, but I've achieved it on some, on some extent, and I know the path there. And yet I want more of those little squares I want to be producing. You know, once I'm sitting there, I'm like, oh hey, I'm in heaven. It's like, well, now what it's like. Well, I'd love to make some content. I'd love to have some other people be here with me. I would love to share the experience, you know, and some suffering.
Speaker 1:So action, and, as Landon is saying, action, taking action, creating action, manifesting action, intentional action. Hell, yes, exactly, that is it, man. Do it, just do it. I think I made a really cool Instagram story post to that effect. Instagram story posts are one of the things I'm most fluent in. Like it's pretty, it's. I have like little obstruction in me when it comes to like me being like okay, I want to make a story post and I put it up, those things go well. Now, granted, again, I'm super annoyed with the Instagram editor. I clicked the wrong thing and my text goes behind the picture and my gift went behind the thing and my whole composition changes.
Speaker 1:Oh my man, eddie, wow. First of all, absolutely. Second of all, straight to the belly of the beast, bro. Hell yes, let's go into fucking shame. Dude, prof, I love it, dude, I love that you're here for this moment where we, like you, just saw the begin like. This is the seed level of what is going to be an incredible podcast episode with awesome little pieces of content all over Instagram and the internet, and it all started on a freaking covici, though, with Noah. Honestly, that might, we might be doing that this month. If you've got, if you've got any availability, I am in. Wow, wow, that's the.
Speaker 1:That is the topic, that is the quest of all quests Shame, the most toxic of the human experiences. The poison of the poison, intimacy is the. If I'm not mistaken, it's the alchemical equivalent, it's the chemical equivalent to shame, absolute poison which, when transformed, becomes gold. Does it get anything else? Absolutely, dude. Let's 100% dive in on that. I love it. I'm actually writing that down. I'm writing you into my list. Where the hail is the list? That's the question. We're just going to put it here, shame man. Wow, that's going to be a hell of a conversation. That is going to be a hell of a conversation. Perfect, thanks for pitching that.
Speaker 1:See, earlier I was talking about being a projector, which is a human design thing, and I was talking about how, you know, life unfolding really mirrored the idea of me jumping when I get invited to things. And it's hilarious because you just invited me to my own podcast and guess what? I'm jumping on it. I love it. It's happening. It's so fucking lit. Also, can't wait for your take on it and your journey through it, because I know it's going to be a bright one. It's going to be good. And boy have you dropped, kicked your ass to the other side. You have, yeah, yeah, you're the embodiment, and I'm sure you still have. You know your journey, but, my God, you're the embodiment of drop kicking barriers that other people get stuck behind. Not you, eddie, not you. I love it. I actually I can't wait. I really can't wait. I'm actually super excited about it.
Speaker 1:Shame is a really good one, yeah, yeah, if it. I mean yeah, it's like it's an umbrella category. You know, if it weren't for shame, a lot would be a lot less painful, a lot less scary and a lot less difficult. Shame's the killer, shame is the killer. Shame is like that thing that creates the living dead experience where, like, you're not dead yet, but you're not living because you're not allowing yourself to live, because you're terrified, I mean, and it's completely human, it's a completely human experience. I mean, there's nothing, you know, it's the most normal thing, but you're just absolutely terrified of experiencing shame. Frankly, you should be. I mean, shame sucks, super painful, super painful. So I cycling Oslo and Falchon. So that was what I thought about.
Speaker 1:Wow, what a topic. Look at us go. This is it, this is it. Guys, we're really in the cop seat with Noah right now. This is what it's all about Ping pong.
Speaker 1:Is shame greater than fear, prof? Great question. Here's what I'm going to say about shame and fear. Shame is the thing we're afraid of. It's not greater than fear, it's causing the fear. Yeah, I hear you. Yep, there you go. Eddie, damn Eddie. Eddie and I are going to fucking drop some bombs. Baby Eddie and I are going to drop some bombs.
Speaker 1:Get ready for this podcast episode, holy shit. Yes, by the way, prof, don't take our word for it, right? I absolutely would love to hear what your thoughts are on shame and fear and the relationship between them, especially if you have something that we haven't mentioned, some other kind of nuanced relationship between the two. Thanks, man, I love it. Seriously. It's keeping me going. It's keeping me going. That hits so deep. Hell yeah, man. Hell yeah it. Do it really do. Let's see what kind of you know it's like.
Speaker 1:I think about shame. I think about singing. Singing is something that I felt a lot of shame around. I don't know. I mean, I guess there is some shame around it. Even still, it's taking on a new form. I've really lowered the intensity and the concentration of the poison in it. I'm willing to do it, but, man, I had to go move mountains to get through that.
Speaker 1:There's something to be said about how things like shame even especially shame the external world and society can use it, weaponize it to get us in line. They shame us into culling behaviors that they don't, that are threatening to the rest of the tribe, that are threatening to the past and established tradition, et cetera, et cetera. It can be weaponized, you know, but ultimately and I think this is the whole thing this is like what Eddie and I are going to be talking about. This is like this is it right Ultimately? It's us right. Ultimately, it's when we align to it, it's when we feel that fear, we feel that shame, that fucking. Oh, it's like that ice, cold chill that runs through your spine and it's like. It is like self-hate as lightning. You can't, you don't even want to be in your own skin and you'd rather just completely conform, talk about living dead. You literally are just like, yeah, okay, I'm going to axe, I'm going to murder in cold blood the part of me that I was about to express and we're just going to keep moving on and I'm just going to be part of the group and you know, fuck, whatever the fuck I was trying to express before, because I do not want to feel that. Anyway. But my point is it's internal, right, like the person holding the knife to your throat at the end of the day, unless there's actually a human. This is why I'm being careful with it. So, again, it's nuance, it's a very nuanced conversation, but ultimately inside is where we're at. It's us. It's us holding the fucking knife to the throat. It's us like for me, in singing, for example.
Speaker 1:I did a bunch of lessons in singing. I loved it. I was learning the mechanics of singing. I love singing. It brings me so much joy whenever I'm singing.
Speaker 1:And then I didn't go to lessons for a while. I actually didn't go to lessons because I went to MIT and I did a bunch of personal development stuff. And the next time that I had a singing lesson, my teacher which was like seven weeks later, maybe longer, eight weeks later my teacher was like, oh my God, like have you been practicing, like you're so much better now? And I was like, no, I actually haven't been practicing, but I'm no longer strangling myself as I'm trying to sing. I didn't even realize I was doing it until I just shed so much of like the self judgment and I found you know, I found how to be in and be in motion, like activate a sense of being Noah and then move through the world that way. So I found the way to be and I was.
Speaker 1:I fucking let myself be free, right, and literally, because singing is so. I mean, singing is coming from your body. Your body is the instrument when you're singing. The self judgment that I had even if it was subconscious in the past, before I did MIT was so physically present. I actually have video of me singing and stuff. I mean I guess I could try to sing something, but anyway, the point is it was so physically present that it was as if I was literally strangling myself while I was in a singing class. Obviously, that does not support your singing.
Speaker 1:So once I just showed up and I was like I'm no longer judging myself when I think it sounds bad, like I would still think, oh, that sounded bad, but I wouldn't do anything about it, I would just let it be and sure as shit. The feedback I got was oh my God, you sound so much better. So that was a really positive leap forward. You better sing now. I love it. I just don't even know what I would sing. Is that? Yeah, no, I'm feeling into it. It's not a cop out. If we come up with something, I guess I could do it. Let it be baby, let it be an action. Just do it. Let it ride, let it be.
Speaker 1:Absolutely no sense in getting in front of a freaking. What is it. God, it's the impenetrable object, but the unstoppable force, no stance in standing in front of an unstoppable force, an emergence, the emergence of yourself, in a manner of speaking is ultimately across lifetimes, ultimately an unstoppable force, and our ego is like this little thing. That's like no Standing in front of that unstoppable force, so it's going to get wrecked eventually. I might as well learn to let it be.
Speaker 1:Well, I'll tell you this about singing. I'm a baritone and I rejected that about myself for a long time. It's kind of weird, like there's so many things I've learned, like, for one thing, I'm a baritone and I would always try to like. I would always like, oh, I wish I could sing, you know, like alto or whatever, like Bruno Mars and things like that. So you know that's like a zebra trying to be a lion or a lion trying to be an eagle or an eagle trying to be a frog or whatever. It's not. You know, you gotta play to your strengths. So it took me a while. I actually have a playlist on Spotify where I have a bunch of like pop songs that I really enjoy that are in the baritone range. Now what's funny is, even though I'm not technically like incredible, let's say I actually seem, if I judge myself, I seem to have a pretty wide natural range, and so if I practiced more frequently and with like a serious degree of dedication, I imagine that I could actually produce something pretty cool in myself, which is exciting, and I would like to do that and it's literally like just a gift for me. I just don't even know, yeah, I don't even know how that would look externally. It's just about honoring something in me that has always wanted to come out and just spent 29 years being choked back, just crazy. But yeah, so you'll hear something soon. We can say, we can say there will be something soon. You know, it's funny, I should actually cut.
Speaker 1:I did a Elvis, I did Heartbreak Hotel, it was my it's my first and, I think, only live performance, and I did it at a theater on Valentine's Day as part of a lineup, which is crazy, and I literally blacked out like I was completely sober and I walked out onto the stage. Mind you, for whatever reason, I couldn't get any of my friends to play in a band with me, so it was just me over a track at an actual lineup of like bands and stuff. So it was like a little bit weird there, right, but I was like fuck it, I'm going to break through. One of my friends, Jen, actually put me up to it and like held me in the fire, like held my feet in the fire and was like you're doing it. So I did it and I swear man, the second I opened my mouth to sing, I blacked out. I just blacked out and it was actually a pretty freaking great performance. It was awesome. I'm like very proud of it, and it made it to Instagram, but it didn't make it to Instagram in a permanent way. It made it to Instagram in my stories, which is something I was saying earlier. So I really should go back and put that on Instagram.
Speaker 1:Speaking of which, now that I've got you guys here, what's your feeling on posting old stuff on Instagram? What's the take on that? I don't know. I don't know. I mean I want to do it because, just for the sheer fact alone that I have amassed so much content, so many goodies like the Elvis performance, that, for whatever reason, I wasn't like in the groove of producing content or whatever never made it. They never made it in a permanent sense to the internet. This is the kind of thing where, if I had a team. I could basically send my team through my archive and they could be producing all kinds of little content, nuggets from years of documenting my life. I just wonder about that Like.
Speaker 1:For example, there's a lot of really cool photos of me with my white hair. Never made it to Instagram, but now my hair is not white. It's just funny, because it's not like I would hold back. Just because it's not like the fact that it's not current would have me hold back from posting it. But it is very funny how people are like wait, is your hair white? Wait, but your hair is not white. It's funny. It confuses people. I think that oftentimes there's an assumption that it's current when you're posting that it's current but it doesn't have to be. You loved it. Oh man, eddie, we got to talk about this is all connected to shame. That fucking look was just as risk taking for me personally as skydiving. Same risk, terrifying. Dude.
Speaker 1:Two years before I dyed my hair white and you probably saw these shoes I don't know if you noticed them I bought myself some Nikes. They were the Nike Cortez. They were white with a red check and they were basically just like Marty McFly's shoes. So he has a different. He doesn't wear Cortez. I think you wear some other style. But I basically remade his style in Cortez and when I put those shoes on these are shoes, shoes, like who cares about shoes I put these shoes on my feet. Mind you, I'm thinking these are the coolest fucking things I've ever worn in my life.
Speaker 1:I put them on my feet and I'm immediately terrified and everybody watching this is like how were you terrified by putting shoes on your feet? You're literally on the internet talking. Like you know, I get this all the time in real life. People are like I can't believe it. No facts.
Speaker 1:I felt so self-conscious walking around with my little new Nikes, you know now, I'm so far beyond that. I mean, dyeing my hair white was that's a whole another league, you know, than wearing the shoes. But baby steps, literally right, literally baby steps. This is what I'm talking about. I've got a lot, you know. I've got a lot, especially in the shame folder. Don't even get me started. I'm a Capricorn. I'm a Capricorn. For those of you who don't know what that means, that means that in the tarot deck, my car is literally the devil. I have a lot of things in this little head of mine that I imagine, after this post, a white hair pick. It was a complete moment. Hell, yeah, I'll post it in my story, for example. I would go back. I kind of want to go back.
Speaker 1:I took a pit stop back at Brown again because I want to make all of my financial management content with brown hair. Just a style choice. I guess it just feels more like I can take myself as a finance guy. I'll take myself more seriously with the brown hair. I've already got my personality is fun enough, right? You know what's funny? I feel like my salt and pepper look is going to be killer. When I'm in my salt and pepper phase, I'm going to peek. I'm going to peek in my salt and pepper phase. You know what? Actually, I'll tell you guys what. We're having a great time. I am going to cut the Gavacito with Noah here on the highest of notes, because I find that that is a very good social media online presentation strategy. Love you, guys and I'll see you next time. Thanks for tuning in.
